It's Hard To Sleep Sometimes

Its Hard To Sleep
With These Thoughts In my Head
i Wonder Sometimes
If id Be Better Off Dead
The Pain i Go Through
And Tears That i Cry
i Am Wondering When
These Tears Will All Dry
With Words Exchanged
i Run Back To Write
my Feelings So Confused
my Body Willing To Fight
my Hand It Stings
From The Hole In my Wall
To GOD i Will Pray
That YOU Will Never Call
And Tell me How im Wrong
And Make me Feel So Bad
These Things That YOU Say
All Make me So Sad
im Sorry im A LOSER
im Sorry im So DUMB
Its All my Fault
im Sorry im A BUM
So LAZY And STUPID
So IMATURE And So Blind
happiness And health
Will It, i Ever Find?
-zach

Like It Really Matters

I may not talk back
and I may not yell
But little do you know
You'll never break this shell
I am who I am
like it or not
you can't make me change
so take your best shot
call me an Ass
Hit me some more
It won't do a damn thing
because I'm me at the core
You may call me different
like thats bad
You may say its my fault
each time that your sad
Go ahead
like I care
I've given up
It's never been fair
I'm done feeling like shit
I'm done wasting my days
Now I can forget
and do things my ways.

A Good Friend

A Crying Friend
to me
Is like a Dieing Friend
to me
They need love and comfort
like me
And hugs and kisses
like me
They have fights and problems
to fear
Scarey things and enemies
my dear
Friends fearing love
is sad
And Friends trusting no one
is bad
I want to help them
rid the pain
To show them sunshine
in the rain
Let them know
and show them love
Make them happy
have them let go of
The sins they've made
The bad things done
The pain recieved
and tell them not to run
For to me my friend
I love you so
do not cry
or hang your head low
I'll pick you up
while you are down
I'm here for you
So never frown

-Zach

Always Fogotten

Sometimes I feel Forgotten
Like no one really cares
Sometimes I feel Forgotten
Like no ones really there
Sometimes I feel Forgotten
Like I'm being left behind
Sometimes I feel Forgotten
Now I feel So blind
Sometimes it's hard to see
the lies in front of you
Sometimes it's hard to see
that none of them are true
Sometimes it's hard to see
the friends that are fake
Sometimes it's hard to see
the good ones are hard to make
left out for the start
and forgotten by the end
it's hard to trust people
when they are barely you friend
lessons learned
and teachings taught
friendship lost
and sorrow caught
lost forever
and never found
always forgotten
and never around

True Love's Life Story

True Love made so secret
it leaves a bloody trail
this pain I want to keep it
but my efforts they do fail
True Love is so fragile
on a pedestal it does shake
I'm careful and I'm agile
but it falls, and then breaks
True Love is then lost
by one simple move
the story is then tossed
and now there is something to prove
True Love walks so calmly
making teardrops in my eyes
it pushes on so strongly
my teardrops they never dry
True Love can be fixed
by hearts so strong
our feelings can be mixed
and find that we belong
True Love is within reach
but it cannot be touched
our hearts they feel a breach
other have them clutched
True Love fights free
it cannot be stopped
together we will be
and trespassers will be cropped

Where did she go?

A mystery never solved
And an answer never found
You left so softly
Never making a sound
Where’d you go
Without a word
Where’d you go
I never heard
Your reasons for leaving
And never calling
This message I’m leaving
Is to show my hope is never falling
But yet I still sit and wonder
How far away you are
I sit here wishing
That you’re not drunk at some bar
But even if you are
I still love you
And until you get back
i still miss you
and once you are back
I would hug you
And please know
My heart would never leave you
So when you’re ready
Call me back
Leave a message
And I swear to you that
your absence will be forgotten
and your kids will never know
the life you lived
and the things you used to show
this love is strong
even when your gone
but when your close
nothing is wrong

Zach

Some May Try

Love is Beautiful
and so are you
Love is Beautiful
I wish you knew
the Breath I take
is taken away
Your way of Life
Your way of Living
the way you laugh
Your way of Giving
tidings and good cheer
Smiles full of fun
Loving life
and Living life out on the run
never stopping
and always Waiting
for your Love
Never fadeing
Love is Powerful
like a car
Love is Powerful
no matter who you are
strong as an ox
but more fragil than glass
some may try
and others may pass
Leaving Love
where Love is lost
Leaving Love
not knowing the cost
of those that are gone
and those that are here
always strong
here's a cheer
good Luck to you
my Loving friend
here's my Heart
to You, it I lend.
-Zach

Forever and Some More

hate me if i'm ugly
love me if i'm hot
love me when i'm sleeping
hate me when i'm not
i love u forever and a little more
but u can't decide and this makes me sore
u hate me and u hate me
i'm sorry it had to be
but i still love u foever and some more
-Zach

My Heart In Your Hand

you have my heart
it's in your hand
love is blind, be careful what you take
you have my heart
it's in your hand
if you squeeze it, it could break
you have my heart
it's in your hand
your's to do with as you please
you have my heart
it's in your hand
what's done is done, just let it be
-Zach

Until The End...

sometimes you cut your wrists
just to see it bleed
and then you realize
and then you start to scream
and then we call the doctor
to see what you have done
he says there is nothing we can do
as i watch the blood run,
up into my sleeve
and down into my shirt
i look at you and cry
and wonder how much it hurt
sitting in the front
looking at your face
look at what you've done
i want to leave this place
the church is full,
of all your friends,
we all loved you,
until the end...
-Zach

Never...

never said you couldn't
never said you could
never said i loved you
never said i would
never thought i'd hurt you
never thought i did
never said you were wrong,
until the very end.
never said we couldn't be together
never said we couldnt try
never thought you'd hate me,
until the day i die
never said i wanted truble
never said i wanted a fight
never said you wanted it either,
until i found your lie
never said it was their fault
never said it was mine
never said it was your fault,
until i heard you whine
never said i figured it out
never said i found your lie
never said i found the end,
until the day i died
-Zach

A Word Of Wisdom

to those of you out there
that want to take your life
don't worry i've been there
once or twice
i almost ended mine
i had a knife to my heart
but now im just fine
thanks to someone really smart
she hung out with me
not knowing what i was going through
but now i want you to see
i'm here to stay, stuck like glue
i am on my knees thanking her
she helped me to live
she helped me to stay
you can do it too
just ask for my help
that way i know how you feel
i'll do all i can and more
i can keep your secret
for as long as you need
just don't kill your self
thats my only pleed

i gave up rhyming to get my point accross
-Zach

Hurt Me Bad

felt like i was cheated
felt like i was broken
felt like you killed me,
before my words were spoken
it hurts me on the inside
it hurts me to see,
you kissing him
and not kissing me
i guess i can look away
i guess i can find another
i guess it's a work in progress,
but i wish we still huged each other
i hope we can still be friends
i hope we can still hang out
i hope you still care,
'cause that's what it's all about
you and me
me and you
both of us together
i wish you wanted it too
-Zach

Sometimes...

sometimes i'm drunk
sometimes i'm wired
sometimes i'm stoned
sometimes i'm tierd
sometimes i bleed
sometimes i don't
sometimes i love
sometimes i won't
sometimes your with me
sometimes your not
sometimes i'm alone,
left to rot
sometimes i'm cold
sometimes i'm hot
sometimes i'm happy,
but not alot
sometimes i listen
sometimes i ignore
sometimes i see you
and adore
sometimes i love you,
but not today
sometimes i hate you,
now go away
-Zach

A Hole In My Head, Like The Hole In My Heart

The heart on the inside
is ripped out through the front
beating, bleeding
this hole in my heart
I need you to fill it
I need you to stay
I need you to seach for it
through the night and the day
I think that I love you
I think that I do
I think that I need you
I know that its true
I just want you to know me
before you give me the boot
I'll give you a chace to hate me
before i give you the gun to shoot
a hole in my head
like the hole in my heart
they feel the same
they're just as sharp
like a razor through a wrist
or a stab in the back
I'll love you forever
expecting nothing back
-Zach

Ode To Grandpa

Christmas Lights
as far as the eye can see
year after year
you never seace to amaze me
Easter Bunnies
and Halloween Treats
gather around the fire
look at the little feets
two are mine
two are yours
two are hers
while daddy snores
driving through the fog
driving through the snow
hour after hour
waiting for us to show
so much to say
so little time
year after year
I'm SO glad that you are mine
-Zach

Ode To Grandma

Cookies baking in the oven
that sweet smell in the air
fresh flowers outside
I can't help but stare
Playing Monopoly
till three in the morning
I love you so much
that it never gets boring
sliding down hills
and scraping our knees
dinner's almost ready
can i have some more, please?
Clean Laundry outside
flapping in the wind
a tiny pair of underware
from the littlest kid
rain, rain
go away
let me stay
just one more day
-Zach

One After Another

Living a lie
and wanting to die
Hating to love
but guided by those above
To watch over and wait
I'm pressured by their bliss
Day after day
I'm constently pissed
About what people think
About what people say
Word after word
Saying it anyway
Getting in my head
Messing with my thoughts
Memory after memory
I feel traped in this box
The one I call home
To leave I can not
Hour after hour
I constantly rot
Waiting for this knife,
to take me away
Tick after tock
I'm kneeling to pray
To God, to free me
To God, to help
Life after life
Disapointed was how I felt.
-Zach

I Think You're Right

In the corner of a room
Sits a boy
by himself
playing with his toy
four years later
he goes to school
and he meets other kids
but he is deamed the fool
five years later
he moves away
he makes a freind
and the talk all day
three years later
he was in high school
depressed and down
feeling like a fool
later that year
he almost died
but was saved by a girl
he looked at her and cried
that next year
he found a way
to let it all out
that he had decieded to stay
-Zach

A Fool

In the corner of a room
Sits a boy
by himself
playing with his toy
four years later
he goes to school
and he meets other kids
but he is deamed the fool
five years later
he moves away
he makes a freind
and the talk all day
three years later
he was in high school
depressed and down
feeling like a fool
later that year
he almost died
but was saved by a girl
he looked at her and cried
that next year
he found a way
to let it all out
that he had decieded to stay
-Zach