Forever and Some More

hate me if i'm ugly
love me if i'm hot
love me when i'm sleeping
hate me when i'm not
i love u forever and a little more
but u can't decide and this makes me sore
u hate me and u hate me
i'm sorry it had to be
but i still love u foever and some more
-Zach

My Heart In Your Hand

you have my heart
it's in your hand
love is blind, be careful what you take
you have my heart
it's in your hand
if you squeeze it, it could break
you have my heart
it's in your hand
your's to do with as you please
you have my heart
it's in your hand
what's done is done, just let it be
-Zach

Until The End...

sometimes you cut your wrists
just to see it bleed
and then you realize
and then you start to scream
and then we call the doctor
to see what you have done
he says there is nothing we can do
as i watch the blood run,
up into my sleeve
and down into my shirt
i look at you and cry
and wonder how much it hurt
sitting in the front
looking at your face
look at what you've done
i want to leave this place
the church is full,
of all your friends,
we all loved you,
until the end...
-Zach

Never...

never said you couldn't
never said you could
never said i loved you
never said i would
never thought i'd hurt you
never thought i did
never said you were wrong,
until the very end.
never said we couldn't be together
never said we couldnt try
never thought you'd hate me,
until the day i die
never said i wanted truble
never said i wanted a fight
never said you wanted it either,
until i found your lie
never said it was their fault
never said it was mine
never said it was your fault,
until i heard you whine
never said i figured it out
never said i found your lie
never said i found the end,
until the day i died
-Zach

A Word Of Wisdom

to those of you out there
that want to take your life
don't worry i've been there
once or twice
i almost ended mine
i had a knife to my heart
but now im just fine
thanks to someone really smart
she hung out with me
not knowing what i was going through
but now i want you to see
i'm here to stay, stuck like glue
i am on my knees thanking her
she helped me to live
she helped me to stay
you can do it too
just ask for my help
that way i know how you feel
i'll do all i can and more
i can keep your secret
for as long as you need
just don't kill your self
thats my only pleed

i gave up rhyming to get my point accross
-Zach

Hurt Me Bad

felt like i was cheated
felt like i was broken
felt like you killed me,
before my words were spoken
it hurts me on the inside
it hurts me to see,
you kissing him
and not kissing me
i guess i can look away
i guess i can find another
i guess it's a work in progress,
but i wish we still huged each other
i hope we can still be friends
i hope we can still hang out
i hope you still care,
'cause that's what it's all about
you and me
me and you
both of us together
i wish you wanted it too
-Zach

Sometimes...

sometimes i'm drunk
sometimes i'm wired
sometimes i'm stoned
sometimes i'm tierd
sometimes i bleed
sometimes i don't
sometimes i love
sometimes i won't
sometimes your with me
sometimes your not
sometimes i'm alone,
left to rot
sometimes i'm cold
sometimes i'm hot
sometimes i'm happy,
but not alot
sometimes i listen
sometimes i ignore
sometimes i see you
and adore
sometimes i love you,
but not today
sometimes i hate you,
now go away
-Zach

A Hole In My Head, Like The Hole In My Heart

The heart on the inside
is ripped out through the front
beating, bleeding
this hole in my heart
I need you to fill it
I need you to stay
I need you to seach for it
through the night and the day
I think that I love you
I think that I do
I think that I need you
I know that its true
I just want you to know me
before you give me the boot
I'll give you a chace to hate me
before i give you the gun to shoot
a hole in my head
like the hole in my heart
they feel the same
they're just as sharp
like a razor through a wrist
or a stab in the back
I'll love you forever
expecting nothing back
-Zach

Ode To Grandpa

Christmas Lights
as far as the eye can see
year after year
you never seace to amaze me
Easter Bunnies
and Halloween Treats
gather around the fire
look at the little feets
two are mine
two are yours
two are hers
while daddy snores
driving through the fog
driving through the snow
hour after hour
waiting for us to show
so much to say
so little time
year after year
I'm SO glad that you are mine
-Zach

Ode To Grandma

Cookies baking in the oven
that sweet smell in the air
fresh flowers outside
I can't help but stare
Playing Monopoly
till three in the morning
I love you so much
that it never gets boring
sliding down hills
and scraping our knees
dinner's almost ready
can i have some more, please?
Clean Laundry outside
flapping in the wind
a tiny pair of underware
from the littlest kid
rain, rain
go away
let me stay
just one more day
-Zach

One After Another

Living a lie
and wanting to die
Hating to love
but guided by those above
To watch over and wait
I'm pressured by their bliss
Day after day
I'm constently pissed
About what people think
About what people say
Word after word
Saying it anyway
Getting in my head
Messing with my thoughts
Memory after memory
I feel traped in this box
The one I call home
To leave I can not
Hour after hour
I constantly rot
Waiting for this knife,
to take me away
Tick after tock
I'm kneeling to pray
To God, to free me
To God, to help
Life after life
Disapointed was how I felt.
-Zach

I Think You're Right

In the corner of a room
Sits a boy
by himself
playing with his toy
four years later
he goes to school
and he meets other kids
but he is deamed the fool
five years later
he moves away
he makes a freind
and the talk all day
three years later
he was in high school
depressed and down
feeling like a fool
later that year
he almost died
but was saved by a girl
he looked at her and cried
that next year
he found a way
to let it all out
that he had decieded to stay
-Zach

A Fool

In the corner of a room
Sits a boy
by himself
playing with his toy
four years later
he goes to school
and he meets other kids
but he is deamed the fool
five years later
he moves away
he makes a freind
and the talk all day
three years later
he was in high school
depressed and down
feeling like a fool
later that year
he almost died
but was saved by a girl
he looked at her and cried
that next year
he found a way
to let it all out
that he had decieded to stay
-Zach

My Dream

I have a Dream,
A Dream worth fighting for
I have a Dream,
A Dream worth dieing for
This Dream is strong
This Dream is set
This Dream was started,
when we first met
You're my Dream
Can't you see
You're my Dream
Please, stay with me
I'll do my best
With what I've got
I'll do my best
Your my Dream, my only thought
We can dance
And we can sing
I will kneel
Here's a ring
Do you take it?
Do you accept?
Do you love me?
or is love exempt?
-Zach

Don't Cry

Move away
Don't cry for me
I'm a lost cause
Don't wait to see
The shame I'll bring
The hearts I'll break
Can't stand to do it
It's too much to take
Please don't cry
It makes me hurt
I'd rather laugh
Or even flirt
Time is short
Have some fun
Time is lost
And it's all done
I see a tear
Roll down your cheek
I'll be gone
In one short week
Love me now
But let me go
without a word, I'm gone
Like an arrow from a bow
-Zach

Kisses...

Kisses come from inside
Kisses mean alot
Kisses show emotion
At least thats what I'm taught
But now, Kisses come
And Kisses go
Soft Kisses and rough Kisses
Kisses made for show
Loving Kisses
Tender Kisses
Never more
Only Shoving Kisses
Darkened Kisses
Evil Kisses
Change them back
To Devoted Kisses
Kiss like you mean it
Kiss like you should
Kiss from the inside
Kiss like true love would
-Zach

Backstabbers Anonymous

I thought that we were friends
I thought that we were close
I thought that you'd always be there
when i needed you the most
I guess you proved me wrong
I guess you lost my trust
I guess backstabbers are assholes
and they do what they must
You could have apologized
or never done it at all
You could have kept your mouth shut
but instead u droped the ball
Now im fed up
Now im pissed
Now your a part of
Backstabbers Anonymous
-Zach

Tell Me

tell me what you want
I'll tell you that I care
tell me what you need
I'll tell you that I'm there
tell me how you feel
I'll tell you what I think
tell me that you love me
I'll tell you not to blink
tell me to stay
just a little longer
I'll tell you that i can't
that it will make you stronger
that to lose a love
and keep on living
is the best way to show
how strong your getting
tell me that you get it
that you will watch and wait
I'll tell you that I love you
that the two of us are fate
-Zach

The Great Search

search for love
search for real
searching is hard
here's the deal
look for meaning
look for strength
look for happiness
and you'll get length
look for a smile
not for a waist
look for trust
it'll show good taste
look for "The One"
look for a friend
don't worry about the past
those scars will mend
take your time
don't be rushed
it's a big choice
to just be hushed
-Zach

What's Love?

Some say love means nothing
Some say love means lie
Some say love is worthless
Some say love will make you cry
Others say love is perfect
That its without a flaw
They say that it's surprising
That it will drop your jaw
Who is wrong?
Who is right?
Who's to say
They have seen the light
I say love is possible
Only if you try
I also say love can hurt
and make you want to die
Love is funny
What's it mean?
strong affection
and trust made clean
what do you think?
What do you say?
How do you feel
about love today?
-Zach

A Mother's Love

Daddy hit mommy
Mommy hit the ground
Mommy told the children
Not to make a sound
Daddy hit mommy
Her body lays limp
The children watch in silence
As her blood begins to drip
Daddy's in the car
With the flashing lights
Mommys with the angels
Her wings give her flight
Mommy's in a box
Daddy's in a cage
Mommy's in the ground
Thanks to daddy's rage
The children sob in silence
Mommy said no noise
She loved her daughters
and her little boys
-Zach

Silent Love

Im a friend of yours
and your a friend of mine
silently I love you
in my eyes you shine
you give me a look
its shows me that you care
silently you love me
we know it isnt fair
a love so strong
never ment to break
we live our lives
even when their fake
seprate in body
together in spirit
love is powerful
but never fear it!
dont shed a tear
dont waste a day
stand up and sing
stand up and play
silent love
a silent sign
show your love
and I'll show you mine
-Zach

Smiles Are Lies, But This Is For Real

smiles are lies
they can be fake
smiles are deceiving
they quiver and break
you show me their lies
you light up my inside
you shine in my eyes
smile if you mean it
tell how you feel
smiles are lies
but this smile is for real
-Zach

Why?

Answer my questions
Tell not a lie
Answer my questions
Tell me why
What's dark is night
What's bright is day
What's sad is bad
and what's good is gay
Why the door is open
but never walked thru
Why people are bored
when there is plenty to do
Why no one listens
but everyone hears
Why people are scared
Why we have fears
Why we learn about the past
when what's said is done
Why we worry about the future
when it has yet to come
Why trees make leaves
but drop them to the ground
Why dogs run from home
and end up in the pound
Why depression can be hidden
by a laugh and a smile
and the scars never fade
even after awhile
Why be jealous?
Why cry?
Always my friends,
Always ask Why?
-Zach

My Little Red Secret

There's a thing I can't say
A thing I can't show
There's a thing that haunts me
no matter where I go
It's my little red secret
My little red pain
Red as my blood
Washed away by the rain
As small as your love
Backed away by your word
As meaningless as I could ever be
Your love is assured
For me it's shattered
For me it's lost
Never again
No matter the cost
My little red secret
It's stabbing me deep
My little red secret
I'm begining to weep
Tears of saddness
Tears of joy
Tears of silence
The tears of a boy
Crying to sleep
Crying for fun
Crying for you
My crying is done
My little red secret
My little red friend
You stay with me forever
Until the very end
- Zach

For You...

For you I wish
The best of luck
What you did
Now your stuck
For you I hope
You find your love
Guide your angels
They are above
For you I pray
For you I dream
For you I love
a love so clean
For you I ring
this bell of light
For you I rise
with all my might
For you I smile
For you I try
For you I fight
For you I die
My bestest friend
I love you so
My closest family
Never go
For you I remember
This date in time
June 5th
forever mine
-Zach

just a note June 5th is my cusin's Birthday

A Look to the Sea

up on a hill
under a tree
sits an emo boy
stareing at the distant sea
watching the waves
splash and then die
he thnks about life
and he begins to cry
why guys bash his head
and girls bash his heart
why friends kill his soul
and friendships are hard to start
his head inhis hood
tears roll down his cheeks
he's in a bad mood
that he won't come out of for weeks
his parents think he's tired
but he knows he's close to gone
now he's in his chair
out in the lawn
he's planning his end
forgetting his love
ending his life
now he's flying up above
-Zach

A Wonderful Girl

I know this girl
and she is amazing
I know she is perfect
and it drives me crazy
I love her smile
and her beautiful hair
She's so wonderful
that it isn't fair
I wish I were with her
every minute of everyday
A love made strong
in each in every way
seeing is believing
and I wish she could see
the love she has
and has given to me
I want her to know
I would give her the world
I want her to konw
That she is a Wonderful Girl
-Zach

A Prayer For A Friend

This is a poem i wrote in honor of a Friend, i was informed of these things on a chruch reteat and the information has affected me deeply. i have prayed for this Person every day since the i heard. so please if Your Friend in suffering... pray to whatever god You belive in to help Them. and talk to Them Yourself and let Them know how You feel about the things They do.

A Best Friend lasts forever
Memeries never fade
Remember when we were younger
and every day we played
Swinging in the park
and running in the sand
Back when boy bands were awesome
and N'sync was our favorite band
Going to church
Just to see our friends
Praying for toys
and ignoring all the trends
Things they change
but we'll stay close
Through thick and thin
I'll still love you the most
You started drinking
and smoking things you shouldn't
I really wish you'd stop
I really wish you wouldn't
When I let you know
You tell me that you'll try
but eventually I find out
It was just a lie
So I sit and I pray
Praying to GOD
"Help me God, She NEEDS your help"
and with his cheerful nod
He says he will
Her scars will mend
With this prayer for a friend
-Zach

Remember things don't happen instantly but you can be that helpful shove in the right direction.

I Could Care Less

what hurts the most
is u never cared
and i look back everytime
wishing i hadnt been so scared
to let you know
the way i felt
and the way i was
you made me melt
in your eyes
and in your arms
with your beauty
and your charms
love me never
i understand
love me forever
i thought that it was banned
i walk away
into the light
im sorry you miss me
but i lost the fight
against all odds
and against all ways
to free my soul
and my self each day
love me
hate me
miss me
fear me
i dont care
theres nothing here
nothings fair
and nothing clear
-Zach

Don't Tell Me Not To Swear

in the begining i had planned to write an entertaining, funny, poem using every swear word i could think of and was going to call it "The Cuss Poem" but as you can tell thats not how it ended up, so i revised and made it into more of a bitchy im pissed kind of poem, lol, so enjoy. :D

Don't tell me not to swear
cuz i don't give a shit
I don't care how fuckin mad you are
you can throw a fuckin fit
your stupid ass reasons
and your god damn lies
tell me not to fuckin swear
look in my fuckin eyes
I'll tell you
fuck you, you fuckin slut
you fuckin swear
so suck a fuckin nut
you stupid ass bitch
your not my fuckin mom
go on fuckin myspace
and complain to fuckin Tom
that stupid fuckin basturd
he runs a damn cult
I know I joined
but its not my fuckin fault
I was pressured
and it fuckin sucks
so fuck that fuckin shit
pay me a million fuckin bucks
to run your pointless fuckin life
and connect your fuckin friends
for you, my precious piece of shit
the world fuckin bends
Don't tell me not to swear
you'll lose that fuckin fight
FUCK YOU!
I scream with all my fuckin might
-Zach